the weekend briefly and trip news...

...if it weren't so sad, it would be funny. My love life that is! Oh, I won't be too hard on myself, but geez. Ok- no more complaining, whiners are weiners.

On to the next.

the weekend went by very quickly. I worked both Friday and Saturday so come Sunday morning I was exhausted, but had a wonderful time meeting up with friends at a Tapas Party. Lots of yummy food and sangria to go around. Then we went down to Ocean View Park and had fun dancing to Big Band music.

 {not the exact location, but it looks pretty similiar. Via Hither and Thither}

Getting both excited and super nervous about this trip to Haiti. I had a mini melt-down yesterday about the trip. We had a meeting to go over everything and my trip leader, bless his heart, I know he's not trying to scare us but....it's just so much to take in. I know that it's something that I have to do, so I'm beginning deep prayer over the next month. I'm going to see a lot of things that I have never seen before. And I'm sure my heart will break time and time again. But, I have to go. I have to show them love and help those who desperately need it. I have to.

beat up

talk about 'woke up on the wrong side of the bed'. blaaaaaahhhhh! I just hate it when I have days like these, especially after I was standing on such solid ground yesterday. I was inspired and excited and then today I'm all.. 'um, Leave me alone.'

Geez, Christians are weird.

So what's bugging me? Well, I'm not going to go into all the details just yet.  Don't worry I stayed up late last night writing an article on exactly what I was feeling for:

A. Clarity
B. To talk to God
C. To purely vent

Once, I go back and edit all of those outraged and unruly feelings with a clearer mind, I will be happy to share. Now, what was I saying?

Oh, right about being pissed off... I'm so trying to suck it up for the rest of the day but come 5:30 all I'm gonna want is a RedBox Movie, some McDonalds and my bed. (Sad but true.) I hate it when Satan knows how to get to me. Someone must have told him that I could take on the world, so he sent his gang, and not the puny guys either, I'm talking about the big ones with names like D.,  to come jump me in the middle of the night.

Someone please tell me I'm not alone. Have you ever felt 'beat up' after you were having such a good day?

coming into existence

{photo found here. Isn't it lovely}

as a blogger, you are bound to come to terms with the question of, "Exactly how much should I be sharing?"

I've come to that place only to be left standing here, completley stagnagnt. tap, tap, tap....

So I'll just give you the jist...
I met up with the ex the other night. Had a beer and caught up. After I said goodbye to him, I realized just how different I am. I am NOT the same person that I was when I was dating him. Not even close. It's a scary yet comforting thought to realize. I've grown... who knew?!

I'm sure that he will always hold a special place in my heart and I want him to. We've been through a lot, but one of the overwhelming thoughts is that, he is just not for me.

God is refining me, preparing me for the real thing. And when I say that I don't automatically think, 'The One,' well I do because I am an obessive lady, but I'm truly trying to change my thinking. It is not just about a man, or marriage or children. It's about me. Becoming the best possible version of myself... for Me. For God. And to honor Him in all that I do. Geez, I'm so different....

being a christian is like....

being constantly surrounded with words of love. Even at your lowest low. You always know that You are loved and that no matter how many times you mess it up, or make mistakes, the love never leaves.

{You can buy these cute wall decals!}

charlotte is in the South

Geez...it sucks when you realize that you struggle with the SAME things that you have been struggling with for months... OK YEARS.

My trip to Charlotte, was good. I had a blast with my girlfriend Shelby who came with me but overall...wasn't too impressed with the city. (sigh)

I really thought thought that Charlotte was going to be my ticket out of VA but it felt just like Virginia which was odd. Although one thing that I did notice very clearly was that I was in "The South." Read into that however you like, but I'm sure you get my drift.

So, back at square one with the, "What is Lisa going to do with her life?" question of the year.

I have some other things in mind, but feel silly for sharing because who knows if those will work out either....does that make sense? One minute I'm totally fine with being on this road to creating myself, with my Savior leading the way, but other times, like this afternoon, I'm pissed! I just want to know what I'm supposed to be doing and what exactly I am here for.
God, will you please tell me now? thanks.

being a Christian is like....

a really fantastic sale. The other night I made the mistake of going to New York and Company because I heard that they were having a really great sale.  I tried on a ton of stuff and found some really great deals, and I thought to myself this is great! Then I stumbled across the accessories rack. Now, I've been praying about my wardrobe lately that the Lord would help me better accessorize.

(Yes, you read that correctly. I actually prayed that like 2 weeks ago.)

And would you believe that I came across an accessories rack that had necklaces, bracelets, earrings all for  $2.99!
I kept asking the sales lady, "This?! This right here is only $2.99?!"
"Mmhmm, " she would say over and over again.

And I just couldn't believe how good of deal I was getting. It seemed way to good to be true. But trust me, it was THAT great.

better than a Good Friday

I'm about to share something with you that I have told very few people. Mainly because I know it's going to make me sound like a terrible Christian. Ok, Here it goes...

I've never really been into Easter. I always thought, "What's the big deal that Jesus died for us if God knew that He was going to resurrected on the third day?"

Whew, that was a lot to get off of my chest. Are you all ready to stone me now? (I'm kidding.) So, this year, at the beginning of March, everyone was starting to get excited about Easter. Me, not so much.  That was until two weeks ago. I'm in church and we're in the middle of Praise and Worship. Our leader for my service is Pastor Tina, and she goes to the stage and talks about how Jesus didn't just take on our sin, He BECAME our sin. And I realized, how much he must have been hurting.  Physically, aching, bleeding.  Bruised and  punished. I thought about all of the times that I have sinned, and it seems like enough to crucify Him 10 times over.  Now add your sin, your friends sins, your co-workers sins, random people you have met sins, the entire worlds sins.... He became. His Father, turned away from Him, shunned Him.

It's amazing and the thought leaves me speechless and dazed over His love for me. He loved me. He loved you. He loves us all.

This is the best Friday of my life.

being a Christian is like...

this post started out as many different things, but the main point is that I'm going through a refining stage in my spiritual walk. Conviction at every corner. And I just really hope and pray that when this season is over, I come out beautiful and strong.... 

like Tiffany & Co. jewelry.